...I would be so sad.
Gracie decided that she is done nursing (Yes, this post is about nursing so if you don't want to hear about it STOP READING NOW). Now it would not have surprised me if she stopped during the move when I would give her bottles every now and then and I was really stressed. The I left her for a day and a half when I went to the concert. If she decided to stop nursing then I would have been bummed, but not surprised. After all that we got home and I worked really hard at getting my milk back up and no bottles and we succeeded. For two or three days there were no bottles! I was so proud. Then out of nowhere for no reason I can find (except maybe a masive growth spurt) I was not produsing enough milk for her so I would have to give her formula and all of a sudden she would not nurse. A I mean that, I would try every position for a long time but she would not even try. She would just scream when I would try. So she had bottles all day long. On Thursday night I realized that it was over, that she was done breastfeeding. I cried. I couldn't believe that after all the problem I had nursing I would be so sad to see it go, but I was. That night I was able to get her to nurse, proabably because she was too tired to notice. Last night I wanted her to nurse so bad and I got her up before I went to be and she nursed! She nursed all night long. Well, not all night long, just for every feeding. I am hoping that I will at least be able to keep the night feedings.